Wednesday, 5 October 2011

wow...my darling karen find my today^^ so happy le...

51011 today she call me...i was shock...
when i saw her miss call i was shock...
cause has been quick long time no contact with her...no sms n no call...
but today she called me...n get one miss call...
i was very happy n worry as well...scare anything happen to her...
this two years im really miss her...didnt contact with her after form 5 graduate until now...
just sometimes msg through fb...but she didnt reply
today she call me...n wow she stop her form 6 n continue work with his father...
and she dunno what to do n planning mayb will continue study as well...n she told me one thing that im really cant believe that..this two year she gt msg me at fb but she said i didnt reply her~
at the same time i also said the same thing...it wont happen rite if someone msg u n u didnt receive it...but anyway im really happy that we still rmb each other n miss each other...she's my best friend forever...muakss love you my friend^^

Tuesday, 4 October 2011

if i miss u

如果我想你了..


如果我想你了,我会掏出手机,看看有没有你的短信..
即使我知道,机率是那么的,渺茫..

在我的生活里,有这样一个人,因为他,我曾经快乐过,难过过..
可是现在,此刻,我真的好像忘记,因为我好辛苦..
可是,无论我怎么努力,都是白费力气,他深深的印在我的脑海里..
他占满了我的世界,充满了我的思想和意识,我好矛盾..



因为这个人是我心中的亲人,我最在乎的人,可我已经好多天没有好好的和他见个面了..
也是因为这见不到的思念,让我也活得好辛苦..
可是,我却不知道该怎么做,怎样做才会让大家都开心,
让大家都不再难过,让我可以有勇气去面对,
可是我始终找不到答案,最痛苦的就是,老天还要让我在虚幻的梦里天天见到他..



一切的一切只是因为我好想他,可是我却没勇气跟他见面,说声对不起..

如果我想你了,我会把目光投到很远的地方。却不知道在想些什么..
如果我想你了,我会想,你是不是会想我呢?哪怕,只有一秒钟的时间..
如果我想你了,晚上做梦也做到了朦胧的你。我会不愿意醒过来。
只是害怕,梦一醒,你会离开..
如果我想你了,我会深吸一口气,把弥漫了思念的味道的空气吸进,离心脏最近的地方..
如果我想你了,我会把思念换作音符,让它在指尖流露..



我想..
我已经上瘾了.. 戒不掉了..

这到底是怎么了?
怎么回事?是命运的安排吗?是天意吗?
谁可以给我一个解释,给我一个答案?
为什么老是让我忘不掉一个人..?

这就是我现在心里的感觉...真的...

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我真的哭了...,每次看这部video的时候都会想起你傻傻的样子...
但其实傻的人是我...我真的很傻!!:'(

1024 还差10天...

1024是你的生日...
你还记得吗?三个月前是我的生日...我真得很期待那天你回答给我...但你却没有...你什么都没做,你只是叫你妹妹打给我...当我看到你那傻傻(其实你一点都不傻)的样子...我就心满意足了...
真得很高兴你还记得我的生日...
这次是你的生日...还差十天就是了...
我再perak你再damamsara....就算我回来也实在puchong...但我真得很想和你度过你的生日...
我也很期待那天的来临...真得很想你,想你想到要发疯了...一只逼自己做多东西,让自己没有时间去想你...没有时间去想多多...主啊!求你让我的心情能好些...
这次是给自己最后的机会...
1你就让我们两个见面...让我们两个在一起
2让我能忘记他,忘得一干二净...好像失意一样...完全把它忘掉...把它的记忆全都忘了...然后从新活下来...

难道这次真地爱上了你?我的心真的很难受...:'(

认识你已经一段时间了...
也一段时间没有见面了...
不知为什么认识你过后,我才发觉一个人的外表,身材并不是一却
渐渐的发觉原来自己并不是因为这些而喜欢你...
但每当我想起你是我真的心很痛...
一开始为什么你要告诉你喜欢我???为什么???
过后你却把我让给别人,就你自己觉得你给不到我幸福?就因为你觉得他会比你更适合我呢?
你知道吗?自从我同你的话,跟他开始后,一天比一天更确定自己喜欢的是你...
每当想起你我的心就会不知不觉地痛了起来...你这个大傻瓜,大笨蛋!!!
为什么那么听我的话?为什么你不回我的信息?我真得很担心你...最期待的事就是接到你的 
之前告诉你还不是时候...我现在才发现时间,距离其实并不是一个巨大的问题...
我真得很想你...我真得越来越喜欢你了...想你想到很苦...
为什么我们是彼此相爱的却不能在一起?那种感觉真得很痛...想你的时候比想谁都还要痛...
我现在才发现自己原来那么笨,一直在那边扮坚强,其实我自己一点都不坚强...我真得很累...
我现在才真真的体会到你的痛...我们是来自不同的家庭,不同背景,不同的组织...我们为一同的是我们都是来自一个大家庭Amway...你知道吗?我甚至想过问Amway如果一个情侣来自不同的组织那应该怎样办?
我不是那种可以把爱情但玩意儿的人...我做每一件事都是用真心的...不管是认识朋友还是谈恋爱...我的心真得很痛...
真得很想和你在一起...为什么我现在感觉不到你那爱我的心呢?难道你开学后就不能谈情说爱了吗?我也是要开学了啊!!
之前听过一个老实说要爱就爱,不要玩暧昧...这样不止会上自己也会上到别人...之前完全不明,但我现在明了...我真得很想和你在一起,现在不上不下的感觉很难受真的很难受...
do u still love me? can i believe in you? can i really put my heart on you?

Thursday, 8 September 2011

new year start with new hairstyle :D

new year start with new hairstyle :D
lala...thats the september girl...new image of winnie hew...
hehe...all my friends, teacher, even though my student all asking me the same question...
adui~why go n cut ur hair until so short? what make u feel wanna cut it...
long hair nice ma...but actually my hair already with me for 5 years not bad if i just cut it n wait till long again ma...can cut new hair style n new image...
get more fresh ma...^^hope when u see me u still can remember me ba...

Tuesday, 6 September 2011

Busying~ exam paper again @@

last time i having exam...
this two year the situation has change...
is time to let me prepare the exam paper for my primary student...
it's quite difficult for me...>.< n damn tired
different school have different rules n style...so same as the exam paper...totally different way to prepare it...
this year September my part is do all the typing job...@@
ytd get it n then they say tmr need to done this two paper d...>.<
although it's really hard n quite horror for me but it really learn alot thing all the way through it...
WINNIE HSW you need to keep working hard on it...never giv up...gambatehne yosh yosh...:D

...wat a disgusting thing...

today when i on my facebook...
i saw a thing that i never seen bfore...
that i cant really believe it will appear on my facebook profile...
oh no why someone wanna use his YELLOW thing to cemarkan my facebook...
non stop talking bout the sex things...5 guy 1 girl = =''
that gurl start the topic 1st with posting her own breast...and said who wanna lick it...>.<'' ya i know it's normal happen on FB cause started this few year FB bcome a place that got many Prostitute use it for find money by posting their sexy photo...
but wat i really can't believe that...how come my acc gt this kind of ppl post on it...
guy really all no pure one...all think about sex...sex...n sex...
really hard to find a guy that say love is more important then sex...(in my opinion la) wat i saw in my life...my surrounding...
some of them u cant even knew that they already hav sex bfore marriage...they enjoy their life with it...
haiz...they enjoy their life then ok la...no disturb me that ok de la...why wan say im the alien cause im not the same type of them...i hav my own rules...n please DON'T& STOP defiled my profile...thx...apa u cakap ialah u punya pasal tapi janganlah kenakan i pula...

Monday, 5 September 2011

真的好险哦!!!

今天当我离开校门的时候,真如往常都是脚踏车回家...
当我一搭出校门时既然有辆轿车用很快的速度望我这方向来...我当场整个人吓呆了...我的学生也吓呆了...就差那20cm就碰到我了...我听到车主真的踩很大力的Brake才停下来...当时真得很危险...
我第一次反应不过来...@@ 我直接把车去翻方向的地方结果我被两面以昂面而来的车夹住了...完全动弹不得,已动就被车橦...我当时的心很乱...心想这次死定了,头脑当场一片空白...
我心里只说了一句话 “神救我”...
当我心情转回来时,才想到当场的画面有多恐怖...
真的很感谢神的我没事...神灵听我呼求...不然我看我现在真的躺在医院了...

i learn something~:D

时间过得真快..一转眼我已经成为2个月的老师...
假期也过完了...今天又要会去上班了...TT^TT 这次真得很不舍得哦...
好像再呆多一下下才回去...这假期真的过得很有意义...不是白果的,只是觉得过得好快哦...如果再多几天那该有多好...(好贪心哦)xD
在假期中我学习了很多东西...也认识了一班很爱神,又可爱的弟兄姐妹...
通过这个营会我学习到很多事...
神也提醒我很多我以忘的一干二净的事...
我下定决心...我要从新的认识我们的神耶稣基督...也再次给自己一个挑战就是..
1。我一定要看完圣经的每一本书...
2。我要停止我现在的服侍...做神要我做的服侍上...
3。我之前从主动掉去被动...现在我要从被动跳回去主动...
这样我才能找回我失散的火热...对神起初的爱...

神在营会里让我再次confirm我和他的关系...他让我再次大大地被圣灵触摸...在此被破碎我的心...
神也通过游戏,聚会,分享的时候让我找回,也让我知道我失去那把火的原因...
真的要很谢谢你们那么的关心我,照顾我...在你们里面我真的能感觉到在主里我们是一家人...
再W80里面我发现团结和一真的很重要...重要到超乎我想象的和我肉眼看见的
当我们在比赛的时候(不管是拔河,Amazing Race,还是吹气球)
大家都很团结...很合一...当你们说你们这个小组只成立7天的时候我真的吓了一跳...因为根本就不像嘛hehe...当组长给指示的时候大家都很明确的根从组长的指示去做...大家都很同心和一的完成每一个任务...
当我看到大家被圣灵充满然后通过圣灵和水的洗礼时,我突然有莫名奇妙的感动...真的
当我们一起同心和一的为 lemon tea祷告时...我真的可以感觉到大家使用心为他祷告...希望它能从黑暗中脱离...我也是有同样的感触...

Sunday, 4 September 2011

start with 0

this is the 2rd time i use blogger~
the 1st acc actually i already forget the password edi...so terpaksa la i'm gonna use a new acc...
a brand new year all things start with '0'
new account...new hair style...learn new thing...
plan to read the bible again from the 1st book to last book... 66 books 
all my life start with new things...
forget all my passes...specially all my bitter memories...
i need to forget n move forward...
i remember one nice word...i think is like this
靠人人跑 
靠山山倒
靠自己最好 but i think i wanna change something here
靠耶稣最好~   
2011 de September all thing start from beginning...^^